True Confessions

So I am well into my 2nd week off and I continue to procrastinate in this one particular area. . .

Meal Planning is just one of those things that I just struggle with.  Not only planning the meals but also creating the grocery list to go buy the meals.  I actually don’t really mind the cooking or the shopping as long as someone will just tell me what to cook and what to purchase at the store.

Once upon a time, a long time ago, in a far away land. . . actually, not in a far away land, just in a different time in my life, I actually enjoyed meal planning, but once I had children who were complaining about the meals I cooked, I started to not enjoy it so much.  I planned.  I shopped.  I cooked.  Their meals went into the trash and my ego was hurt.  I stopped cooking altogether.

Now I am NOT a master chef and I am NOT the least bit creative in the kitchen but I can boil water and I can follow a simple recipe.  (My hubby may argue against both points, but honestly, I can.)

Everyday for the last week, I have had menu planning on my list of things to do for the day.  Today was no different and yet here I sit at 8:00 pm and I have not planned anything yet.  My middle child did ask for tator tot casserole for dinner tonight.  He even brought me the recipe that he found.  So for dinner tonight, we had tator tot casserole.  This is not something we have ever had before.  I cannot say that it is something that we will ever have again, but. . . it was a meal that we ate at home and it was way cheaper than eating out.  My plan for before the sun sets tomorrow is to make a menu for the week, make a grocery list and go buy groceries.

If I am going to continue to stay at home, this is something that I will have to start doing.  Just sitting here writing this causes my anxiety to increase, but I know I can do this.

Lord, I really need your help.  I know that for so many people this seems so simple but I have not planned a weeks worth of meals in a very long time.  My dear sweet hubby has been the primary chef in our home for longer than I care to admit.  I ask for a little inspiration as I undertake this endeavor to feed and nourish my family.  Push me through my procrastination and keep me on track through this process.  Help me to get into a regular routine of meal planning, cooking and shopping so that I can provide this for my family.  Thanks for everything that you have provided for us today.   You are my Lord and my Savior and everything that I have is because of Your gracious love and mercy.  I pray that others may see You through me, Amen.